Today was a long day. I woke up early and finished my online Jr. TESOL course. They are offering college credits for it for $180, but I don't have the money right now, so I will not be able to get them. Not a terrible thing, but, in my mind anyway, it would have been nice to be able to get them. I guess I am actually happy that I don't have the money. If I did, I would get the credits and then regret it later!

 

After that I went to MS Echo. We spent most of the time talking about changing the format. It went well, but I didn't add much. After the meeting we went out to dinner.

 

It was also a little bit of a sad day as is going to be the rest of the week. As I think I may have said, my director wants me to cancel my trip to the states. I feel I need to be at the wedding, so I am unwilling to do this. Because of this little disagreement, we have decided that we would cut the contract short. I guess in this way I am not quitting, and she is not firing me. I am not sure what one would call it, though I do need to find out so as to be able to tell potential future employers. I guess my reason for leaving would be the end of my contract, though this may lead to questions about why I had a 10 month contract. If you can help with this, please do.

 

Yesterday for dinner I had rice. This doesn't seem too interesting does it? Well, this rice was mixed with vegatables and fish eggs. I didn't know that I ordered this (I guess it was actually ordered by someone else), but I ate it anyway. It didn't taste bad at all I hardly noticed the fish eggs, though there was the occasional grainy feeling.

 

I am not sure how I am going to get my stuff home. I need to send some packages through the mail. This means I need to find some boxes, get them packed, and find out how much it will cost to send them. And then I need to hope I have enough money to do it.

The biggest problem I am going to face, however, is the one of telling my students I am leaving. I don't know how they will react, but I know I am going to miss them a lot! I have started dealing really well with my kindergarten students because of the class I was taking, and I have become really attached to them. It seems that a couple of them have become attached to me too. I know they will get over it quite easily, if it bothers them at all, but I am not too sure about me. I know from experience how difficult it is to leave students you have been working with, even for just a short time. I went through this everytime Upward Bound ended and when I came to Korea.

 

I will probably have to go through this type of thing many more times during my life, and as sad as it can be, I am more than willing to put myself into this position again. I will always try to make a difference in other people's lives, even when I must feel some separation anxiety at the end. I guess this is to be expected when you put as much of yourself into the work as I do. Perhaps it is not good that I do, but at the moment at least, that is the way it is.